Haven’t been posting much lately. A lot of stress and worry about our Fascist in Chief. The man is terrifying in his single minded pursuit of egocentric bullshit and just plain old malarchy.
Given the intimidation level that some of the government agencies are showing (yeah, be a whistleblower and have someone from DHS show up on your doorstep asking questions coincidentally when you’re in an interview with a newspaper. Uh huh) – my paranoia level has ratcheted up a bit.
I work hard to keep my ‘anonymous’ life 100% separate from my personal life. Even this blog has no connection with me personally, except as a place where I vent my frustrations.
Unfrotunately, it makes it hard to be in a community when functioning 100% anonymous. It is a weird conundrum. I want to be not-me, but I also want to connect with others. Just… can this be done in a safe and secure way?
Reddit is one possible community, and I’m exploring that as best I can, but if anyone has suggestions on ways to (in a relatively civil fashion), interact with other anonymity-loving citizens of the world, I’d love to hear about it.
With the amount of damage trump is inflicting on the united states, i wonder if it’s time to start considering leaving. What I would have considered a nightmare / fantasy scenario 5 years ago, looks like it has a possibility of happening, no matter how far fetched.
What happens when Trump declares dissent illegal? When he puts in place the structures that make it legal to arrest someone for disagreeing with him. Or more poignantly, not allowing people to leave the country who want to. And I’m honestly not talking about physically restraining them at the borders. I’m talking about leaving with any functional financial, personal structure in place.
Short of carrying a trunk full of cash across the border, will it be possible to leave the country and still have acces to eveyrthing we as American citizens have built and own? Or will he declare that “american property” and seize it?
In reality, I fear more what sort of nation he’s turning the US into, more than what he as an individual will do. The former is what will impact me the most. Where it becomes ‘okay’ to be attacked for presenting a dissenting view.
I was recently reading a thread somewhere out on the net where people were saying what I considered untrue and misleading statements, specifically regarding the election, and Trump’s suitability as president. I wrote a lengthy reply, stating my position that I believe Trump is a demogogue, completely unsuited to being President of hte most powerful nation on earth, and that I believe he has lied and cheated his way into office, not only to the nation, but to his supporters. (Yeah, lets ‘clean up washington’ and ‘get the special interests out’ and ‘drain the swamp’, while he’s populating all the positions in government with billionaire cronies with no government experience).
I wrote a nice long details response… and then deleted it.
Why? Because I didn’t feel safe speaking out using my legal / traceable name.
This is what Trump has done to my country. Made me afraid to speak my mind, to question authority, to talk constructively about problems and issues in our world. Because I’m afraid, if I post, some Trump follower will decide my house is the next #pizzagate, and nutjobs with guns will show up looking for pedophile rings in my home. Or in my family’s workplace. Or in my local schools.
So I deleted my comments, and let the people rant, unchecked.
This is why I have a strong anonymous presence on the internet. This is why I have this blog where I CAN say these things, because here no one knows who I am. And in that, I have a measure of safety.
I weep for my country, and the world’s future.
Indeed. What now? Trump is the president elect. The big questions are everywhere, and they really come down to “what does this mean?” I don’t know. The first reaction is fear. There is a real possibility we’re looking at a fascist in the whitehouse.
John Green has done a very good job of summarizing where I’m certainly feeling. What will happen in the future? I don’t know. But America has been through challenges before. It’s a possibility Trump will be a huge catalyst for change, and change is always scary.
Holy fuck it’s hard to stay positive and in good space in this country during these times. How has politics and general discourse gotten so bad? I blame the GOP for fostering this sort of climate and making being a ragin asshole and spouting hate ‘part of the give and take of an open democracy’. Such bullshit. They’ve made it impossible to even exist on social media without wanting to nutsack-punch people left and right.
But I’m not giving up. I’m here, and I know even though a certain wifty-headed dipshit spouts nonsense, that the US is one of the least corrupt, most open, most successful, and most economically stable countries in the world. Does that mean we’re a great place to be and everything is honky dory? Hell no, we’ve got some very serious social and economic issues that need to be addressed. But they will not ever be solved by spouting nonsense rhetoric, lies, hate, and non-solutions that only appeal to mouth breathing uneducated fools.
I took a break for a while from this site while taking care of my personal life issues, and during that time, the mail provider I had been working with, ‘ruggedinbox’, has gone dark. What caused this to happen is a subject of much speculation, but manby of my online accounts are tied to my address there. I’m working to recover access to twitter, wordpress, and other services. Stay tuned!
One of the reasons I’m over here in “i’m not really this person” land is somewhat connected with the fact that my viewpoints aren’t necessarily in line with others in my social circles. That’s fine, and I don’t fault them for that, but really what I’m doing is testing out what it takes to truly be anonymous. I’m not doing anything illegal or shady – though some strangers would argue that just trying to anonymous in this world means I must be up to no good.
But it’s a challenge to STAY anonymous,. I have to actively disassociate myself from my normal habits and patterns. This can be a challenge, particularly if I’m tired or relaxed or not paying much attention. Just now, in an online forum, I was chatting away about something, and signed a message as I would a normal mail message in my ‘exposed’ life. Nothing private was revealed, but I saw the post go live (can’t retrieve it), and did a total head-smack. “DAMMIT!”
I should write more about things to watch for when pushing anonymity… but the purpose of this blog isn’t “staying anonymous”, its talking about being prepared without being crazy. Maybe it’s time for a new blog.